The Past

 At some point in life, we have to face the thing we have done in the past. but when the time comes, we don't know how we going to do that. Some may say, just let it be. but looking at a bigger picture, thats life. 

My senior once said this to me. "life sucks bro", yea. it is sometime. i have to agree to that statement. moving to the current days, lots of things have happen, its been 1 year since im married, but the ghost from the past keep hunting in my life..how the shit im going to manage that..its been years away, and it suppose not to be here at this moment. The fact that even other people will look for your mistake make me feels like..how im going to trust people..

Came with the trust issue, its not given. TRUST is EARN..then how the heck should i earn the trust that had been lost along the way.. Every word that i say will be used against me...fuck that..most of the guru's out there will tell you, don't give a shit what people say..then how do you process when your own family turn against you.. 

Even million times sorry can't change anything, this writing is the only way an introvert like can express themself..yea, im lucky to be married to her. Its not easy for her as well. but she stayed. even if she mad at me, deep down i know she love me so much up. 

For now, you have someplace to run, later on, when you don't have anywhere to go, by then what are you going to do. left me for ever like everyone in my life...shit life sucks..