HINATA’s JOURNEY part 1

                                             HINATA’s JOURNEY

13/5/2022

Today I came into a new environment. Since I'm not sure if this new place is safe I just roam around. This is actually the 2nd time I’m here. My 1st visit was when I met a human waiting for the elevator and she held a plastic bag of garbage to her but food to me. I was hiding in the dark room. Finding safety from the other cats and child humans to me were so aggressive  in what they used to say “play”. I was so hungry so I begged her for some scraps to eat to which she held me and introduced me to her home which also had a man who helped me while she continued to take out the trash.

It took me a few minutes to get my food while waiting for me to make a tour on my own. Actually this was not the 1st time I met this female human. The 1st time she helped me when a child human was playing very hard on me. At 1st they threw tiny explosives which I always tried to escape. Apparently it is a festive month or the humans are celebrating something as the explosives were very frequent. Some were so loud that even it woke me up and I would move to another place for safety. The second time she helped me was when the child human was helding me high up in the air if it wasn’t for her i might fell to what seems to me a such high floor

This visit is not as short as the 1st one, my 1st visit after some meals and settling some business. The man placed me back on the ground floor. I quickly ran away before any cats attacked me as they are quite possessive in their territory and they were not welcoming to any new member as it will be more competition for food.

Speaking of food, the couples fed me some biscuits which I was trying hard to get used to. In the outside world no one tells me what to do nor what to eat and I was used to feeding on scraps,tiny bits of chicken or fish and if I’m lucky some kind human might give me food in a packet or canned food. However, I know I’m getting adopted as a part of the family as the humans have decided to give me a name.

~Hinata.

 

TO BE CONTINUE . . . 

The Past

 At some point in life, we have to face the thing we have done in the past. but when the time comes, we don't know how we going to do that. Some may say, just let it be. but looking at a bigger picture, thats life. 

My senior once said this to me. "life sucks bro", yea. it is sometime. i have to agree to that statement. moving to the current days, lots of things have happen, its been 1 year since im married, but the ghost from the past keep hunting in my life..how the shit im going to manage that..its been years away, and it suppose not to be here at this moment. The fact that even other people will look for your mistake make me feels like..how im going to trust people..

Came with the trust issue, its not given. TRUST is EARN..then how the heck should i earn the trust that had been lost along the way.. Every word that i say will be used against me...fuck that..most of the guru's out there will tell you, don't give a shit what people say..then how do you process when your own family turn against you.. 

Even million times sorry can't change anything, this writing is the only way an introvert like can express themself..yea, im lucky to be married to her. Its not easy for her as well. but she stayed. even if she mad at me, deep down i know she love me so much up. 

For now, you have someplace to run, later on, when you don't have anywhere to go, by then what are you going to do. left me for ever like everyone in my life...shit life sucks..